taking a break
today a spider hitched a ride on my neck and face on my way to work. i wanted to scream when it skittered around, but didn’t. even if i realized how tiny it was in comparison to my hand, i realized i should have. what is it with me and insects?
there is a jar of homemade strawberry jam downstairs in the kitchen. and it is beautiful.
while looking at old files, i found a a document i didn’t recognize and tried to open it. i couldn’t remember my password so i wonder, what else am i hiding from myself?
i was with the person who was able to convince me to (1) commute to tagaytay [uh, doesn’t sound so bad, i know ==== but five goddam rides?] (2) go to megamall, a toy store no less two days before christmas (3) trek to quiapo during the christmas season (4) take a jeepney. i know this is really just chicken feed to most people, but i am anti-social, i hate large crowds, and i always feel that i will get lost in a jeepney. and i do it because she goads me enough to prove to her that i’m not who she thinks i am. she will probably save me from me.
i should stop looking for you.